Archive | September 2017

remembering.

Tomorrow will be 12 years.

Christopher heard the call and was loyal and committed to the purpose and destiny he heard all of his life. Yet, the mixture of his zealous personality (do it right or don’t do it at all), and the certainty of purpose and assurance of destiny, fought with his tender heart.

With the tendency of feeling disqualified, it became too much.

I’ve been writing here for awhile now, with the purpose of being a small but steady light telling of God’s care during tragedy. I have not written solely about suicide, but the heartache of suffering in all its shapes and sizes.

I cannot speak to every heartache, but I do know the One who can.

I’m just a beggar telling another beggar where to find bread. And when you are hurting, you are begging for answers.

But we don’t always get answers, do we?

Some say, how could a God of love allow pain? I say isn’t it amazing how a God of love will comfort us in the pain.

It’s always been easy for me to see the big picture and not get lost in the details. That said, I have often found strength learning of the suffering which has come to mankind since the beginning of time.

There is a bigger picture. One that is difficult if not impossible for humanity to grasp. Try as we may, though, we form intellectual opinions based on what we see or understand, not realizing (or accepting) that just as the immensity of the universe cannot be understood in our finite minds, we will not understand why we suffer.

God’s ways are not ours. And in this I find comfort. Because it tells me someone is in charge of all this.

He has the answers.

The Bible speaks of the great cloud of witnesses” who surround us – those who spur us on to continue with perseverance  the path marked out for us. Men and women who faced intense adversity: ” … they were put to death by stoning; they were sawed in two; they were killed by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted and mistreated …”

We can continue with world history and current events which reveal so much pain and suffering, along with many, many who have endured and persevered, because they have grabbed hold of something bigger than themselves.

I do not want to minimize pain by sounding trivial in the conclusions I have come to.  But even in my worst first moments of receiving the news, suffocating and pulling me down into an abyss of hopelessness and despair, I found a brief moment to catch my breath and see the big picture of human suffering. Looking back, this was God pulling back the curtain to show me a truth that would help sustain me.

I was not alone. Countless others have faced this and more. God wasn’t picking on just me. He wasn’t punishing me. He wasn’t rejecting me.

Pain will isolate us, particularly from God. It, like death, is an enemy. An enemy that God will deal with one day when he wipes away every tear and there will be no more sorrow or death.

This is truth.

The truth sets us free from the limitations of how we see things.

And so we wait.

God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? 

chris-peru

 

Christopher Moulton

November 30, 1981 – September 26, 2005

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teenagers.

When I began raising teenagers, I thought because they had so much more than I did in terms of the road map of faith, they would certainly not struggle through those years as I did, without spiritual direction.

I was wrong.

Granted, they have an advantage – the word of God which clearly will not return … empty, but will accomplish what I [God] desire and achieve the purpose for which I [God] sent it.

The seeds are there. Some have sprouted. Some are dormant and will be ready at an another time.

If you have a Christian home, remember they our kids are human and will struggle like we do. Jesus said the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. Even though they are better prepared, they are human.

We our impatient in our American culture. We think input-output – results when we want to see them.

The fruit of our investment may not take place until long after we are gone. We may never see it. But we have faith to know God is faithful, always leading and guiding our kids just as He does us.

I came upon a book at a rest stop on the way back from vacation. It was one of those stops for gas, a drink, and a snack. My eyes glanced over and saw this book. Just what I needed this year homeschooling my teenager. Something that would speak to the common insecurities teenagers have, giving direction, comfort, and hope.

I wonder if we are so intent on reaching goals with scripture memorization and mission trips, earning badges and ministry accomplishments, without realizing what goes on inside of a person. In other words, we can be so much about doing and not think about being.

“I Don’t Feel Loved”

“Someone I Know is Sick”

“Teased Because of My Looks”

“My Siblings Drive Me Crazy”

We should be aware of our the tendency for a quick fix without taking time to understand and help our teenagers work through their struggles.

It is also a great book for kids of any age. Even adults.

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