“God has not been trying an experiment on my faith or love in order to find out their quality. He knew it already. It was I who didn’t. In this trial He makes us occupy the dock, the witness box, and the bench all at once. He always knew that my temple was a house of cards. His only way of making me realize the fact was to knock it down.”
C. S. Lewis; A Grief Observed
Sometimes it feels like God is playing some kind of sick game with us.
Or we think he is testing us.
Or punishing us.
All of the above are normal feelings.
But the Bible says God’s ways are not like ours; his thoughts are not like ours.
That’s difficult for us. We only see in 3 dimensions.
God is not confined. That’s where faith comes in. You either trust and believe or you do not.
He teaches us about ourselves and how much we need Him, and beneath us are his everlasting arms.
Even in death, which seems like the absolute end, He is there.