10 years.

It will be 10 years this September. I cannot believe it.

I don’t write this easily. Even though I have faithfully written about the simple ways life encourages us, 3 times a week for 2 1/2 years, it doesn’t mean I do not still feel the complexity of deep heartache.

It’s just that now, I’m not gasping for air.

In the early days and months, I wrote so much. My heart was hemorrhaging.  My heart was injected with poison and it needed to come out  – my son’s death and some events that followed with people who should have known better.

I just don’t know how 10 years went by so quickly.

chris peru

 Christopher

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13 thoughts on “10 years.

  1. A handsome young man, So very sad. Time does not mend but it does put a distance between the freshness of our loss and the subtle sorrow that stalks like a shadow. I know your pain. I know how writing has been cathartic and also like a memorial to me son. Keep writing. We do strike a sad chord with others but also a chord of hope when we share our stories…..only with God can we do this.

  2. Kathleen Moulton posted: “It will be 10 years this September. I cannot believe it. I don’t write this easily. Even though I have faithfully written about the simple ways life encourages us, 3 times a week for 2 1/2 years, it doesn’t mean I do not still feel the complexity of de”

    So hard to believe it’s been 10 years Kath. Christopher is so beautiful.

  3. I wish I had some encouraging word for you -but I don’t. Each year holds it’s own unique challenge, and while the pain does lessen the fact that you have to face another year without your son simply just sucks. I am sorry for your loss. You will be in my thoughts.

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