It’s one thing if someone dies in a war, an accident, or from a disease.

It’s another thing if someone you love dies from suicide.

You think people understand but you soon find out they do not.

The closest people to you can be talking behind your back about the one you lost and you don’t know it until the tell-tale signs begin to appear.

And then you think, “Oh. They are talking about it.”

And the one who is gone is being pulled apart and analyzed.

But the worst one is, “I thought so.” How dare you?

I’m so thankful God knows everything. He is my Defender. And his.

I know that now.


You should know it, too.

How I love you, Lord! You are my defender.  The Lord is my protector; he is my strong fortress. My God is my protection, and with him I am safe. He protects me like a shield; he defends me and keeps me safe.

The Bible  (Psalm 18)


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3 thoughts on “suicide.

  1. Kathleen,
    I was not sure what you are saying but I know how it feels to have a loved one commit suicide. I felt guilt and thank God for a wise older friend who gave me a verse to help me realize that God is bigger than me and could have used many people to rescue my brother from such a fate. Are you going through this yourself and are you saying that people are judging the person who made this decision to take their own life? It’s been many years but I know how misunderstood this subject is. My sister has been dating someone for over four years and won’t tell him that we had a brother that commited suicide because she has met people who think it’s something that runs in families like catching the flu. I, too, have had people ask me if I’ve ever had suicidal thoughts when they learn my brother did this. Maybe that should be my next niche for a blog. Explaining that it’s not a disease or mental illness. I’ve heard people come down very hard on those who make that choice. Thanks for hitting this subject.

  2. Hi Marlane,

    I was talking about the person who took his own life and how misconstrued it gets. I realize people don’t know what to say and that’s ok. It’s the people who had too much to say. And you’re so right! Some people hold you at a distance because they think it runs in families.

    God is his defender and that has brought me comfort.

    Thank-you for your comment. You’ve helped me because you understand.


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